我不配...?

這感覺　已經不對　我努力在挽回 一些些。。。

听着这首歌。。。感觉。。。我是否也不配呢？？？ 不配做人。。。 不配当个好孩子。。。 不配当个好朋友。。。 不配当个好情人。。。 不配做人家的男友。。。 不配。。。 很多的疑问。。。茫然~

是否要学会看开。。。是否要学会放手。。。是否要学会乐观点。。。 学会一个人生活...?

我是否配？？？

wahaha.... donated blood~

today... hmm... 10am class... haha... because 8am class cancel already... then can sleep late a bit... nice~ haha^^

after the class.. about 12pm... me, sk, key, gazo, ah xiang, goh and xiao ai... go canteen 2 ate our lunch... and wait hs and ah keong come... because we want together go donated blood... haha~ but goh didnt follow us go donated blood... because he got music class at 130pm... hmm... maybe next time only call him donated lo...

anyway... about 1pm... when hs and ah keong reached already... we enter the college hall (blood donation campaign at here )... i feel very cold lo... dont why == " this is my third time donated blood... haha... after fill the form... and through many type of department... got examine what type of blood you are... got measure your blood presure and bla bla bla lah... haha... then... we enter the donate area... and start donated blood... me and sk sit together lo... haha... sk arr... dont know he scare or too excited lo... the nurse only put the donate bag at his hand... and i saw him look like very nervous lo... and he face... damn funny de lo... hahaha~ cute la u sk... especially is you face... wakakaka~

me and sk... i just finish donated... but he still haven stick in the needle lo... =="

after donated blood... we all straight away go WCG play counter strike lo... play 3 hours arrr... i also respect with my condition lo... haha... can tahan so long... pro~

today... wrote until here... hmm... feel tired... and sleepy already...

All Back to Narmal... Bored Life~

finally... back to write blog again lo... hehe~ actually... is lazy + nothing to write... but now... im back... hahaha^^

hmm... readjust back my mood... my mind... haha... everything is ok already... fine already... but o... feel everything are back to normal already... start the bored life again... ==

today... haha... is my housemate... Hanz's birthday.... hohoho... brother... happy birthday o~ last night... about 12am... got celebrate with him de... buy 1 cake for him lo... because at the time have a bit hungry... though the cake will become my supper... but... who know ==" Hanz and my another housemate... stupid cai xiang... play the cake... play until whole the cake falling down to the floor... ==" babi betul... my supper arrrr... wuwuwu~ walao... plate also prepare already liao lah... haizzzz... people is sing "london bright is falling down"... but my one is sing " my supper is falling down" (colddddd~)

today class is 8am... then until 4pm... wah... damn tired de lo... whole day dont know doing what lo... blur blur... because last night didnt sleep well... sienz~ after the class... i direact back home... after bath... wait the hair dry... and go to sleep... sleep until now lo... start wrote this blog...

today... nothing special... nothing interested... just a bit bored... and doing nothing for today...
hmm... start the bored life again lo~

还是开心不起来。。。

是不是有病？？？哈哈。。。自己也搞不懂 ==" 明明没事了的。。。但。。。为什么还是开心不起来呢。。。很情绪化。。。心里还是感觉闷闷的。。。我想。。。是不是本身的问题。。。像是在钻牛角尖。。。走不出来。。。懊恼~ 很想开开心心的。。。但。。。 有也是表面上的功夫。。。真正的开心。。。我还是做不到。。。那脸一直板着。。。就像大便酱。。。是人都看得出我心情不好啦。。。掩饰不了。。。haizzz~ 三天了。。。已经三天是这种心情了。。。几时。。。才会没事呢？？？几时。。。才可以变回以前的我？？？ 乐天的我。。。茫然~

在写这部落格时。。。心情很复杂。。。很差。。。很差。。。没有一个目标。。。不知真正要表达些什么。。。有点想哭的感觉。。。忽然很想念家。。。很想回去。。。休息。。。充下电。。。换下环境。。。调理下心情。。。可能。。。是时候要找个时间回去了。。。

今天。。。是 MID ( Shi Quan ) 的生日。。。U1 + U4。。。大概有十五个人。。。在 station 1 帮他庆祝。。。超热闹的。。。那么多人帮他庆祝。。。哈哈。。。MID。。。 生日快乐哦~
祝福你^^

写到这。。。一样。。。期待明天。。。更美好的明天^^ 我相信。。。总有一天。。。一定会到来。。。

~闷闷~

懊恼。。。讨厌。。。复杂。。。烦~

今天。。。心情还是有点差。。。感觉闷闷的。。。不想说话。。。到了学校。。。上课。。。唉~也没什么话想说。。。头脑好像处于"当"机状态。。。什么也想不到。。。简直像条死鱼==" 尝试去想为什么我的心情忽然会那么差。。。但。。。到现在还是空白。。。找不到一个真正的原因。。。可能是常年累积的吧。。。可能是太多事情参杂在一起的关系吧。。。可能只是个情绪低潮期。。。太多的可能。。。或许都是借口。。。让自己有个阶梯下而已。。。

但。。。今天的一切也不是都那么差啦。。。至少。。。今天我又去找她了。。。上完第一堂课。。。和朋友去tbr吃完东西后。。。就跑去图书馆等她。。。我sms找她。。。她也是在图书馆嘞。。。哈哈。。。是碰巧吗？？？还是........??? 嘻嘻^^ 哈哈。。。管它是碰巧还是什么的啦。。。能见到她就好了。。。呵呵~把那天买的巧克力拿给她。。。就是因为这巧克力。。。让我有借口再见她。。。哈哈哈哈~谈了一会儿。。。因为她十二点也是有课。。。在 block V...能怎样。。。就陪她一起过去咯。。。只为多见她一下下。。。

然后。。。我也去上课了。。。Mr Johnny 的课。。。可能是他教书太搞笑了吧。。。又或许刚刚见到她。。。心情也没那么差了。。。只是。。。累了。。。早上八点到现在。。。上完课后。。。两点。。。还早。。。但。。。回家了。。。冲完凉后。。。感觉悃。。。就睡了。。。

睡醒后。。。就开始写这部落格。。。心情。。。好像好了。。。感觉。。。没事了。。。虽然到现在还不知道心情差的原因。。。但。。。也不要去想了。。。算了。。。开心就好。。。没事就好。。。

今天就写到这。。。期待明天^^ 美好的明天~

Wonderful Day ??? Maybe IS... Maybe NOT...

hmm... finally find the mood to wrote this blog liao... erm... today... is wonderful ??? i also dont know... just feel confuse... actually is feel happy de arrr... but... why i cant feel it...................... ==

wonderful... because today i go meet her after the class lo... hohoho... hmm... when i saw her... haha.... no need say de la... of course is feel happy de lah... hehe~ happy until.... hoho... no word can explain it lo... erm... chat a lot with her... feel good^^ really.... really.... good~ (",)

now... waiting for tomorrow... hehe... can see her again... wakaka~ because i tell her want take something to her... haha... actually this is pretext let me can meet her again... haha...

just wanna say sorry with her... sorry...
erm... maybe not wonderful... why i will say like that... hmm... actually i dislike be a human... because too complicated... i most dislike relationship between people... ('_') erm... i like lie people... and let myself happy... think it is fun... haizz... people call this "犯贱" lo... i also agree... haha ==" but... when the person who i lie feel angry or unhappy... then i only know what i do is wrong... is stupid...maybe is i think too much... maybe is myself problem... a lot of maybe... what can i do ??? haha... i also dont know... maybe only this moment will feel like that... because feel not very good mood mah... haha... tomorrow will become more better... i think...

hmm... want end at here liao... feel tired...
expect tomorrow... because will meet her again^^

忘记今天... 期待... 明天的到来... 更美好的明天...

Day of Nothing Special...

上帝创造天地万物...
祂将最美丽的事物...
都放在世人面前...
所以人生在世...
无论你经历过什么...
只要你懂得珍惜...
一切都可以使最美好的...

hmm... just finish watch the movie... ~最美丽的第七天~ quick nice de lo... finally the end liao... the word at upstate leh... is copy from this movie de... haha... want learn 珍惜 all the things liao... dont want let my self regret... haha~ ( but just know say la... really will do or not... haizzz... still dont know lo )

today... go mid vally shopping lo... with ben, key, ah goh n sk lo... 5 batang shopping... bored~ haha... actually is me want buy something la... so... suggest want go mid vally lo...

i will go so far and buy the thing... haha... because i only know mid vally have the shop... buy what leh??? haha... just a chocolate lo... dark chocolate... bitter one... erm... because she say more like eat bitter one... so... haha~

after buy the chocolate... we go sushi king ate lo... hoho... i come kl so long... dont know ate how many time already liao lo... but... it really taste good... hehe... ( just a bit expensive ==" )

then... haha... is key again... he fetch each one back home again lo... really want thank you him a lot... thank yarrr... brother... every time is you...

reached home is about 7pm something lo... after bath... lazy go out ate... so... just cook maggie ate lo... and watch movie lo... erm... now... sit in front of computer and wrote this blog lo...

nothing special for today... just like normal... erm... end at here... feel sleepy liao...

what the BAD DAY~

hmm... dont know want wrote what de lo... today... not very good mood... everything look like no prosperous... haizzz... tired~

today... also the same... wanna wake up early... because want play basketball with friend lo... after wash the face... i call key... because i receive the message from ah xiang... he say didnt come play basketball worrr... so... i worry they will cancel... then i call key lo... haha... he say got play... and he say want come gk (genting klang) take something and suitable fetch me lo... when he reached and fetch me liao i only know the "thing" is how siang ==" the elephant... he just come back from puchong... i though is what lo... haizzz~ haha^^

when reached college... i saw sk and ah keong already at there... pity keong... wait we half and hour already... keong... sorry leh~ then... we start play the basketball... few minute gone... ah goh also reached already liao... so... we play 3 vs 3 competition lo...

today... dont know what luck for me... just play basketball only mah... why will get so many injure ==" haizzz.... 1st is my thumb... sprain lo... damn hurt de... walao~ hurt until tear want fall down lo... very hurt... and my thumb swollen liao =="

2nd is my lip... i think i too love basketball liao... go "kiss" the ball lo... haiz... blood donation campaign haven start... i already donate the bleed to the floor lo... haizzz~ my lip... also swollen liao... today... i really really "lucky"...

but today how siang do a unbelievable thing... he just face on me... and throw the ball to the basket... wah~ the ball go in lo... the basket are stand at he back side leh... dont know he is lucky le... or really pro... haha... or maybe this is the type of magic... wakakaka~

in the break time when we play basketball... i go canteen 2 buy the 100plus... i though will meet HER lo... but... too bad + unlucky... today the fund raising counter didnt open... haiz~ cannot meet HER already... after play the basketball... we go tbr ate our breakfast + lunch lo... and decide later want go where... key and sk say want watch movie... but... i reject it lo... because... feel very tired liao... and a bit pain... my thumb... let me no mood go...

then... also is key fetch me and how siang back gk lo... back home... after bath... my auntie come find me and take the food for me... haha... today dinner no need spend money lo~ about 3pm... feel tired... so i go find "zhou gong" liao...

sleep until 645pm something... do nothing... just check mail... watch movie lo... sleep more then 3 hours liao... still feel tired... and a bit headache... damn~

after finish my dinner... watch "i guess i guess" lo... but watch until half only... dont want watch liao... bored... and no mood to watch... sianzzz~ do the english homework lo... after that... do the web page practical lo... but... only do few question... all forgot already liao... maybe tuesday want find ben teach me how to do... so... doing nothing again... sianz....... today... really "凶" arrr... face a lot of problem... and get 2 way injure =="

hohoho... today... i also wrote a lot of nonsense... haha~

A day of blur blur @@

615am... cos the msg... i wake up liao... ah xiang sms me say want find me later n together go to college... 8am class... damn tired de... blur blur go wash face n bath... then go college with ah xiang lo...

reach college about 730am... still feel blur blur... go canteen 2 buy my breakfast lo... everyday almost ate the same things... sandwich + chocolate milk / nescafe... ate until wan vomit ++

805am... enter the class... web page... teach by ms ting... haha... saw there guys all reach already... then... ms ting start teaching the class lo... discuss the tutorial... i done already... but still not really understand what the question ask lo... still blur blur~ in second hour... ms ting say got a quiz... which group win then can get participation mark... me n key, ah xiang, ben n bobby in 1 group lo... haiz... dunno y... when i answer the question blur blur de lo... 2 question... i answer wrong... actually is easy question... hmm... dunno y... just suddenly feel sad n blur n lost all the confidence @@ cos... i answer wrong in easy question...

unluckily... our group lose already... haizzz... the mark... gone already liao lo... sianzzzz~
the class finish at 1145am... so... din meet the u4 guys... after that... me, key n gazo direct go to fau room n duty lo... when i reach canteen 2 (cos fau room just beside canteen 2)... i saw HER... SHE also duty... but SHE is duty at fund raising counter... different department == then... start run the campaign lo... go to dk y... do the cute cute blood again... damn hot de lo... after that... cos i dye the hair... cannot run another class... cos they no need the cute cute blood... so... i back fau room again lo... alone... dunno wan go eat my lunch leh... or wait key n gazo come back only eat together... at fau room there... i saw HER again... but v just chat few word... blur~ cos nth to do... i go find key n gazo... they still run the campaign... n v take lunch together after run the campaign... break a while... v continue run the campaign again... same is no need the cute cute blood... but i also follow lo... just din go in the class... reach the class only know... the class is... U4 class... then i saw how siang (elephant), man in dark, ah keong n a lot of them la... in the class... n i saw the xiao pei... when she looking at me... dunno is what face lo ==" but she really look like jelly fish lo... wakaka~ after finish running the campaign... finally... can back home liao... feel very tired... n blur~ 2day... also is key fetch me back...

back home... check mail a while... n bath... n sleep at 5pm... zzzZZ~ tired...

wake up on 730pm... ben sms me ask 2nite got yum cha or not... want go station 1... cos karen kong will come... at the time... i start wrote this blog... actually dunno want wrote what... blur~
jason also got find me at msn... n ask want go station 1 bo... i ask the tbr guys... sk, ah goh n gazo want come gk or not... but they say no mood... so dun wan come... haizzz...

about 9pm... ben call me say he, jason, lucas n xiao pei reach station 1 already... so... i go n find them lo... i take my dinner at there... order what chicken rice de... hohoho... really "cheap" lo... RM8.90 le~ haiz... never mind la... long long 1 time... haha~ v wait until 10pm... haha... finally karen kong come already... 1st time saw her real person... last time only saw her in magazine or what de... haha... not bad lo... can call pretty already... then... enjoy she singing... 1st time hear her sound... erm... not bad... sweet o... her song... like "zheng zheng tiao" n "li dao"... nice~ after karen kong gone... station 1 got what competition de la... who get the sticker can come out n sing n can win 1 samsung hp... cos the sticker is stick at the table... n jason very lucky lo... v all call him go out n sing... hahaha... 1st time hear he sing at public place... he sing "bei pan" lo... i really surprise he sound is so nice lo... compare with me la... hehe^^ cos this "bei pan" song not easy to sing... v though will discount on the bill cos jason sing infant there... but unfortunately... v thinking 2 much liao... haha~ the bill didn't discount... n still want pay the 15% tax... =="

about 12am... back home liao... is 14 of march already... i continue wrote my blog lo... erm... saw a lot of word in upstate... haha... feel a bit achievement... cos can write so many nonsense... wakaka^^ i think... want end writing on here... now is 1:05am already... very late liao... n really really blur liao @@

HAHAHA... i got a new blog already lo.... wakakaka~

cos of my friend... hao xiang.... he create a blog.... n key say will improve my writing... n i also feel interest n fresh about it... so... HAHA~ i create this new blog lo^^